Where should i start from....

Yes, maybe you should play this song to understand better.

I feel a gush of hot air stuck onto my throat now, the feeling of breaking down.

Tried to look for a picture but none of them is without me smiling/laughing.

Have i been so happy all the while which nothing seems to affect me at all?

Perhaps or Maybe. Which human being on earth has no feelings or mood?

But i'm someone that chooses a correct time to break down when i'm alone.

Those anger and sadness that cannot be hidden, and need a listening ear.

This is my blog, my diary, a page which i type out the real me with my dailies.

But bear with me for this post, i can't be happy everyday sharing my outings each time.

I need somewhere to vent and rant, maybe i feel that this will make me happier all after.

And to be even more emo, i finally found a song that i've been searching all time in Jay's album.

Is it fate that i can find it when i'm feeling so damn low? I lost but i gain something instead.

What did i lose? A five letter word. Which i think only myself that can overcome this.

I used to rant and vent to a best friend but over the time but i didnt as i dont wish to affect her.

Perhaps this is why i've accumulated so much unhappiness inside and always keeping it to myself.

Overcome. How? By shopping the entire day or staring at the sky or maybe hide in the room all day?

Call me a fool but i'll never overcome obstacles that's affecting me this way, problems can't be solved.

Whenever i'm down, i don't talk to anyone, i keep my phone aside, i lie down & think all about it.

Only companion is tears and tissues, really. Cry all the frustrations out & repeatly think of the problem.

This is how i overcome myself and when it's rainbow after the stormy rain, i'll be either fine or not.

I need time to recover and to heal my pain. Whether or not i'll be okay after this is a mystery & a history.