Whisper My Name , Karen.

Tuesday, October 14, 2008 @ 10:43 PM

MondayBlues.

Despite turning in early, i'm still struggling to get up 8 in the morning.
I went to work with like a sleepyhead, & when i boarded the train . . .
I remembered i did not charge my mp3 & it couldnt be on at all lah.
And i listened crystal clear all the stations , the rails track chain sound.
The train was super stuffy and it's hard to catch any fresh air when the doors open.

Tuesday.

Work as usual but i didnt go for lunch with baby's sis & Viv, cos i wasnt hungry.
I didnt go for lunch yesterday as well cos Viv went M'sia & baby's sis went out.
Work was as usual & i'm so gloomy everyday, and i always flare up for nothing.
My sunshine's so faraway and nothing seems to brighten up my days this month,
the only motivation's my best friend 'Calender' i look at it each time & every single time.

Did paperwork & i saw the patches of red faded stains on the papers.
I thought my red ink spilled but instead i saw my ring-finger bleeding.
Applied antiseptic cream and baby's sista pasted a plaster for me.
There was a sting when i got my fingers under the running tap,

And my sunshine called! He sound so fragile but still so sweet.
It really warms me up , but my heart was heavy knowing his days there are so tough.
An urge hoping to have him lying on my tummy again & shoving his botaky head.
And baby to dry my hair, to cover blanket,to hug me to sleep,to buy me popcorns.

Wednesday

I'm fatigued, work's tedious, i need my comfort & that's baby.

But i just relieve my stress & aches with Eunice with an hour plus on the line.

I miss her so much & i'm digging time to meet up with her while not crashing with her o's.

As time passes, i know who meant the most to me, my baby, my eunice, my family & GG.

They're my source of survival, cos they're the ones that stays with me for all the time i live.

I need a puff , but i promise baby i wont.

I'm feeling so empty & i really need him back.